JERK

jerk jerk jerk jerk!!!

im speechless. im sorry im being nonsense. bear with me.

why?

why? well i do have a lot of questions in my mind lately.

i admit i question people a lot. i overreact sometimes. i just don't know why. maybe because i don't want to be the underdog nor the loser. why am i like this? maybe this one is acceptable.

another thing, i don't like what im becoming right now. im becoming conceited. i am becoming a monster. why am i treating him like that? i used to get "kilig" with his words. i just don't know what happened next. all of a sudden, i seem to lose my grip on him. :/ can somebody tell me why? he used to be the man of my dreams---the one who makes me feel im significant.

why do the word unfair existed? why do good things come to an end? why do ironies happen? :(

KILL-TIME post ^^,

A) FOUR JOBS I'VE HAD IN MY LIFE:

1. sole comforter
2. secretary slash operator
3. saleslady (haha i worked for my mom's grocery)
4. private nurse for granma :D


B) FOUR JOBS I WANT IN MY LIFE

1. SURGEON
2. OR nurse
3. Poet, Writer
4. Band Vocalist


C) FOUR MOVIES I WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AND OVER:

1. 10 Things I Hate About You
2. Troy
3. Cruel Intentions
4. A Knight's Tale


D) FOUR PLACES WHERE I HAVE LIVED:

1. Angat
2. QC
3. Malate, Manila
4. ---


E) FOUR TV SHOWS I LOVE TO WATCH:

1. HOUSE MD
2. Supernatural
3. One Tree Hill
4. Anything on Animal Planet


F) FOUR THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT (OTHER THAN THE BASICS):

1. Laptop/Laptop
2. Ipod
3. Books/Magazines-
4. TV!!!

G) 4 WEBSITES I VISIT DAILY:

1. Facebook
2. Multiply
3. Blogger
4. Perez


H) FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:

1. Pasta
2. Mangoes
3. Chips
4. Fruits

I) FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:

1. HongKong
2. USA
3. Vatican City
4. London


J) FOUR OF MY FAVORITE PERFUMES

1. Light Blue by Dolce and Gabbana
2. CK One
3. Clinique happy for women
4. Elizabeth Arden's Green Tea


K) FOUR OF MY FAVORITE MUSICALS

1. Miss Saigon
2. Sweeney Todd
3. Sound of Music
4. Les Miserables

L) FOUR FRIENDS WHO I THINK WILL TAKE THIS QUIZ:

1.
2.
3.
4.

M) FOUR FAMOUS PEOPLE I WOULD LOVE TO MEET - DEAD OR ALIVE :

1. Johnny Depp
2. Brad Pitt
3. Tyra Banks
4. Oprah


N) FOUR THINGS THAT MAKES ME HAPPY:

1. GADGETS
2. FRIENDS
3. FAMILY
4. FOOD =)

PLEASE TURN this INSANITY TO VANITY

SOO-BORAT, EH?

nothing much is up for tonight
politics kill me, and also the h1n1 fright
i just stared at the stars---that are bright
just thought of something---some holy light

light up the sky, a man once said
i dunno how, i just went to bed
i fell asleep and saw everything was red
that's the first sign baby, gee, right Fred?

im writing this out of nothing
maybe i'll have them readers, all laughing
kick my ass if you want and just sing
pretty please, sing, just don't beat the king

ain't know what's this all about
one thing's for sure, he doesn't have a gout
you know who he is, he ain't stout
he's my man, it all comes from my mouth

i am insane, so insane
all night wondering, why send rain?
i might stop this and just be a vain
i just can't, for it'll not be my gain

Looks like someone is bored here. That's how crazy I get when bored. La-la!

Fingers are kept crossed...

I have a lot of dreams. Dreams that could either make me succeed or not. Dreams that inspire me in my works and tasks. Dreams that motivate me to live by with each fucking day.

I am stressed out---some of you might know that. For those who don't, well now you know. I probably am uncertain of such things. But then, my vision got clear when I went to this place. This place was full of life -changing people. It was the first time in my existence that those people I met, circumstances I have encountered,---played a big role in my life. I can not seem to get over with that experience. Maybe, those are some of the signs I have been waiting for all my life. I have been living under "bahala-na" principles but now, I have learned how to be determined and persevered in what I desire. I am now DREAMING BIG. Nothing is wrong with dreaming as long as you will do a move for that dream. Lao Tzu once said, "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." First step it is. I am now doing my first step of /to this a-thousand-mile journey towards my star. My star is my key to happiness. I will do anything I have to, for this star.

Some of my stars would be:

-working inside the O.R. with my lovely groupmates


-have sooo much toxicity in a surgery that i will have nowhere to sleep but here

-do a surgery here at EAMC's Dept. of Surgery's OR 1, after finishing my med school with future consultant, Dr. Virgilio "Jiju" Flores- Garcia (he is the first surgeon whom I had assisted my first Major Case "Exploratory Laparotomy, Appendectomy, Lavage and Omentum Biopsy"

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As I have stated above, there are people who inspire me to reach my star. I am more than thankful for knowing them and allowing them to enter in my curious life.

Sir Mike for his jokes :) bbye na :( he'll leave the country next month.

Sir Yodico is one.

Last but not the least, SIR REMO PALGAN the greatest! :)


(Sir Melvin, Mam Mia, Mam Luz, Mam Leane and Mam Che---we won't forget you!)

Now I can not seem to get enough of the surgery thingy. Who knows what is gonna happen. One thing's for sure---IMPOSSIBLE IS A BIG NOTHING! :)

my cute lil inaanak!

oh nothing. i just thought of showing you guys my adorable and cuddly lil kiddo (inaanak lang ha)
she's one of the sweetest creatures alive :)
whenever she's at my house, she cuddles and kisses me. aww! :)

Paano ba maging happy?

Paano nga ba?

-Magka-iphone?
-Magtravel around the world?
-Magpakalasing almost everyday?
-Manalo sa lotto?
-Maging Suma Cum Laude?
-Makapag-artista?
-Magkaron ng Hummer?
-Magparticipate sa Beauty Contest?
-Sumexy?
-Makapagcollect ng all sorts of jewelries or branded watches?

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-Maresolve ang Global Warming.
-Mawala corruption.
-Mawalan ng pollution.
-No cha-cha.
-No Tuition Fee increase.
-Be with your friends in ups and downs.
-Movie with the family.

It varies perhaps.

Come to think of it. Happiness is everywhere. It is in all sorts of form. Happiness is a state of mind or feeling such as contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy. Some of us enjoy sunsets, beaches,---in short, sceneries. Others look up to wealth for happiness. As for the unfortunates, surviving each friggin' day make them happy. Pero sabi nga:

"It requires some effort to achieve a happy outlook on life, and most people don't make it." —Author and researcher Gregg Easterbrook

Why? Because many people cling to gloomy ways out of habit. They become depressed and pathetic because of their own ways of dealing such problems. One reason again is because the economy lacks the robustness to sustain policy changes that would bring about more happiness like poor community services, etc.

As for myself, simple things can make me happy. FAMILY, FRIENDS,----will do. Indeed. They brighten up my gloomy day. They are in my lowest lows and shrillest highs. We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same. So reality bites eh? We just have to live with it.

Happiness is undeniably different in each of us. Whatever it is, as long as it can make you feel contented and satisfied---it's happiness. :)

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